HEY!

This is gonna be a long post, cos I'll be talking about random things.

Well, I re-read my previous posts in my private blog for about an hour and i realised that i have changed a lot. Both for the better and also the worse.

Anyway, i would firstly like to talk about God's grace. Something happened at work on thursday which made me stressed up. Though it's normal to face these problems in this work, I was still worried for one whole night. But our wonderful God really answered to my prayers and I actually cried out. It was the first time I put all my faith in God, and God really answered me! woooohhh!

Why should i be worried when i know that God will be there for me? God never fails to keep his promises! 

"So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew6:34

Sometimes i wonder if I have taken the wrong step by committing six months into this job. Till now, I am still not sure if this is the road that God has planned for me. If it really isn't what You have planned for me, please help me to get out of it God. I feel so helpless and stressed up for no reasons whenver i go for work. I dunno if this is right. I envy dawn and justina for their freedom! arrgghhh!

I realised I have changed alot. I used to be happy and positive in school no matter how tired I was with my busy schedule. I never realised what stress was and was always cheerful until I was starting to prepare for my A's . But for now, nothing seems to be able to brighten up my day anymore. I cry for the even the slightest things. Work has changed me. 

like what justina said, why do i have to get myself so stressed up at such a young age? 我不是块做大人的料。 我还是小孩！ 

I am bottled up like how i used to be when i was in primary school. I keep things to myself and i try to put on a brave facade. 

Saturday was forgiveness class gathering. one third of the class was present. the person who i din wish to see wasn't there, forgetting is an uphill task. As usual, i didn't talk much and left early. But i really appreciated the gathering, at least the person whom i've always wanted to apologize to didn't ignore me. 

I'm starting to be more protective of myself and never to be too trusting. It hurts when people disappoints you. It hurts to fail in any types of relationships. Therefore i learnt not to commit too much to any forms of relationships.