Firstly, i'm gonna talk about my interview with Stephen. okay well, it wasn't really an interview i guess. It was more of a casual talk and he randomly asked some questions. I salute him for his ability to crap so much, for 2 hours!!! I thought it was gonna be something serious, but as Shaun said, Stephen is never serious. I should have just relaxed a little before going there.

Anyway, we talked really deep stuff, i dunno why i was so open to him. Maybe cos he is like almost 10 years older than me, feels more like a mentor than a friend. From families, to relationships, to dreams etc. He questioned lots of my assumption, which really made me think deeper. I was talking to him about my dream to be a missionary and telling him how i sympathize those who have not heard about the gospel, and one of my assumptions challenged was "what would happen to those who have not heard the gospel? would they really go to hell?" And i'm supposed to give him an answer before exco retreat (i'm not even in exco yet!) Was searching through the internet and reading through the bible yesterday night, and there were really lots of differing opinions.

Then we were talking about the ideal plan of my life, get a bf at 21, and get married at 23. I was telling him how impossible it was, as there were really a lot of psychological barriers that I have to overcome. And after analyzing all the factors for me, he said " I think if you don't try to open up, you would not get married even at the age of 60." dots... So ya, for the whole interview, he was teaching me how to overcome those barriers and persuading me to get a bf.

I realised that God has made me grown alot in the past year. I've learnt to know Him more like a Father than like a Master. Sometimes when i stumble and fall, I know i will still go back to Him eventually.I feel like a child throwing tantrums to the Father, ignoring Him for a while cos i don't get the things i want, but I don't really mean to leave Him at all. And as a Father, He is forever so forgiving and is always waiting for me to return to His embrace.