Just to assure everyone, my situation is really not that bad. I'm just worried cos my relatives have histories of it, but everything is not confirmed yet till i go for the test. And hopefully, everything turns out fine. Even if it isn't fine, it's good to detect it early.

I think God has been speaking to me through different people today. Firstly, Ps Ben changed his message to Healing today, which was not the message that he has initially prepared. And i thought, O God, is this for me?

Then, i responded to altar call, and tears started rolling down my cheeks for no reason, perhaps embraced by God's love. It was then that I realised that God must have been trying to talk to me for the past few days, but i was too distracted by my own condition that I failed to hear from Him. And so God will try to speak to me through different people.

Ps Ben asked me what I wanted to pray for. At that moment, I was still deliberating if I should say it out, but the Holy Spirit prompted me and I blurted it out of my mouth. I think people were shocked to hear about it. After being prayed for by the church, Shujuan and another person told me the visions that they saw while praying for me. Shujuan saw the enemy's troops retreating although I was the only one fighting against them, and the other guy said he saw a cloud leaving me. Perhaps God had been wanting to reassure me all this time that He was in control of everything, and that I should not fear nor feel intimidated.

Anyway, lesson learnt today: If you know that God is not done with your life yet, then there should be no fear of death, cos God still wants to make full use of you. While I was praying, God reminded me of characters in the bible who had strong faith and was fully healed.

thank You, God.