okay, i have started job for about a week and i dun really like it. =(

It has been a busy week for me, with Mondays to Sundays packed from morning to night, and the never ending meetings to attend. For once, i feel that serving in a student ministry is really tiring. During my journey home on Wednesday, the Holy Spirit placed a conviction in my heart which made me tear. I had failed to wait upon God for the past 2 weeks, as I had been rushing all my QT, since i always reached home late and do my QT past midnight. I need to learn to grow spiritually through serving. Ministry should never become a burden in my life, and should never become a distraction that prevents me from growing deeper spiritually.

it's not that i have lost my vision and dreams or wad. in fact, i have sort of rekindled these dreams and these dreams are growing bigger each day. but i feel such a lack of depth in my walk with God. i mean, there's a greater yearning and hunger each day, but i just fail to satisfy these yearning and hunger by spending QT, i keep feeling that something is lacking, lacKING, LACKING!!!. i find myself wanting to go deeper each day, but failing to go deeper. i feel that God wants me to press on and pray even more, but i stop whenever i know it's time to sleep. does anyone know that type of feeling?

" i just want You Jesus, i just want You my Lord... "

i really really wanna know God deeper, deeper than i have ever been before.