i was just sharing about my healing testimony with my family, after being prompted by my sister (who was the only who knew about it). and as usual, the devil placed skepticism into the minds of my parents, who were doubting the genuinity of the story, and they were putting the blame on wrong diagnosis and stuff. this sort of demoralized me for a while, and i was really on the verge of crying, and also doubting the things that i have testified for. i shared it with my brother through msn, and he was like " i know. our parents are like this, they'll find loopholes here and there. at least u got the courage to share, and God is happy with you. " his words encouraged me alot, cos he made me realise that failing to please man is not as serious a problem as compared to failing to please God. i will not be able to please everyone in this world, but i know for sure if allow the Holy Spirit to lead me, i will be able to please God all the time. it's better to be a God pleaser than to be a man pleaser. afterwards, Zhihao talked to me on msn, and he made me realise that this is actually a normal reaction, as the devil is always at work. so my job is to continue pressing on, and leave everything to God.

after dinner, i had a chance to share to my brother-in-law about Jesus and stuff...it was another God given opportunity i guess. and i thank God for the wisdom that He had given me when i was sharing. I actually learned more about Jesus through sharing...... wow. but well my brother in law is a skeptic also, nevertheless, i still believe in sowing seeds in peoples's lives, and share whenever I am given an opportunity no matter they receive it at that moment or not. i was given a mouth to share abt the good news, not to curse and gossip about people.

this week has been ALOT of crying. i cried so much in church yesterday as i was forced to confront my past yet again. now, i'm learning to look at my past with more love, rather than with hatred and jealousy. there are lots of unresolved issues in my life that Jesus wants me to settle, be it healing or cleansing, which will help me in my spiritual growth. thank You Jesus, i will never ever want to remain stagnant in my walk with God.

kidzone was good today! it was such a touching scene to see kids decorating cupcakes for their mums cos they were all so excited. they must really love their mums alot. what a joy.. ahh.

anyway, my mother's day oreo cheese cake was a flop. but well it's the sincerity that counts, and i'm glad that i've taken an extra step to express my love..