the house has been packed with people for the past few days, and I can hardly find a space to breathe fresh air. i dun really like crowds, especially when the house is really small, and the aunties have to squeeze at one large bed, and some slept on the floor with really thin mattresses. the worse thing is that, i can hardly find any time to study cos it's always so noisy, the only time that i can squeeze out is probably from 11pm-2am.

seriously, i dun actually feel anything special about my sister getting married. perhaps maybe it's just a solemnization ceremony, and they will still need to go through the traditional wedding ceremony before she's officially married. but i'm happy for her to have found someone she wants to settle down with.

i need to say, all mums are soft hearted. even though my mum rejected this relationship right from the start, she still gave them her blessings in the end. my mum really loves my sister alot, and the close relationship that they share with each other is one that i'll never ever get.

anyway, when my sister was saying "I do", i really thought she was courageous. i think it's difficult to find courage to commit your life totally to another person, especially being a wife. i'm just afraid that when it's my turn, i'll just press the "STOP" button and run away from it. i think there are still some psychological barriers that i have to overcome.

speaking of this, i have been asked by my relatives at least 5 times whether i am attached for the past weekend. and whenever i say no, they either don't believe or say that they'll introduce some other guys to me. and i think my my mum's really serious when she said she wants to introduce her friend's son to me. this is really worrying cos it makes me feel that i'm left on the shelves. wat's wrong with being single?