i've been enjoying myself this whole week, touring all around Singapore. Chinatown, Little India, Museums, Botanic Garden. It was a time of relaxation after all the dramatic events that happened. I've learnt to appreciate nature as it is, I've learnt to rest and take a break when I needed to. I've learnt. thank you to all who were with me, it was much appreciated... but I really wanna go somewhere on my own for a few days, and spend time talking to God. i shall plan for that, i'll go to a place where no one can find me, and spend one whole day there.

God has been changing me in His simple ways, encouraging me through simple things. i was assured that He has stepped in to intervene and sowed the seeds of peace,love,warmth,joy and harmony in this family, and that He has removed everything the devil has planted. that He would take things in His hands, and never leave me in the lurch. the promise that "God is always there" is not only for time of trials, but also for times of joy.

i've decided to move on to YA. it was a tough decision, but i felt peace in my heart. i needed to be fed more, i needed to have more support. thank you all for the understanding and the blessings, hopefully i am a step closer to God's calling. thank you to all who have encouraged me and supported me in one way or another. thank you to those who reminded me time and again that my family is the mission field that God has sent me to. it's time to spend more time with my family.

lesson learnt today: God loves me for who I am. that i do not have to strive to get His love. that i have been accepted even before i do anything.