I made a promise that I would give my all to God 10 months ago, that my heart will be given wholeheartedly upon Him for one whole year. As I look back, I am grateful by how much He has blessed me and brought me through my ups and downs, and the amazing ways He has used to push me to grow spiritually.

One year ago, I was a lukewarm Christian, not knowing how I managed to get into NTU with my not-so-good grades. And now, I am full of passion and dreams wanting to know more of God. One year ago, I forced myself to pray for at least 5 minutes before I sleep, but now, prayer has become an integral part of my life.

When I made the decision last year to give my all to God for a year, I really had no idea what I was landing myself on to. I just knew, I wanted to grow, and I don’t want to waste 4 years in NTU stagnant in my spiritual growth. I knew I failed the first hurdle that God had given, but He still picked me up and made me go through a series of trials to strengthen my faith. Even till now, He is still placing me in difficult situations, which requires not only faith, but obedience.

It’s like déjà vu; some things of the past have been coming back again, some with the same group of people while the others are not. The difference is, I have Him to rely on now, not just alone, not by myself. I have learnt to make decisions based on His will and not mine. And sometimes I feel blessed that I am not the only human being facing the tough situations all alone, I am blessed by people who keep me in prayer all the time. If not, I would have grown tired and weary and walked away. He has blessed me with good friends whom I can depend on, and I’m learning to treasure every single one of them.

I have 2 more months to go, and I really have no idea when will be the last hurdle. I am still stucked in difficult situations almost every day, and whenever there’s a little break, I’ll know for sure that this is not the end. “There’s more to come right, God?” but I am grateful each time He gives me the grace to overcome the tough situations and I feel blessed with all these. Whenever I face problems, I’ll just go “God help, Jesus help, and Holy Spirit help!” and I know for sure that He will respond.

And maybe I should renew my commitment, but doing it another way. Perhaps Jaeson Ma’s 365 days acts of love will be something that I would like to commit to. I had to make a decision today, a hard one though, cried, but God is there as always. God preserves!

Who knows what will happen in a year’s time? all the way, Racheline!