Saturday, September 4, 2010
sometimes i feel like running away from the harsh reality of life. i think i'm just a hermit crab. i wanna run away from all my problems. but i guess God has seen enough of me running away and avoiding problems, choosing the easy way out and stuff. He has put me in situation such that i have to choose between A and B, and running away is never a solution. or should i say, i can only run away by cutting off all my contacts with everyone and disappear, and lead a total new life all over again.
as much as i've been tired with avoiding problems, i'm also tired with facing problems, it's tiring! and i guess i can only be thankful for any situation that He has put me in, if not, i would be stucked in the situation really long. i thank God for all these periods of my life though, i finally understood what it meant by going through different seasons in a Christian walk. i'm grateful for it, cos all these taught me to depend on God and make decisions by myself, and not just relying on others to make decisions for me. i've been to reliant on other's opinions at times, and i just take whatever that they say. I've failed to really wait and ask from God for advices, and hence afraid to make decisions by myself. i think making decisions is the hardest thing in life, and at times, i will always feel that others is right, and i am always wrong, which makes me really guilty if i don't follow whatever they say. i guess this is a way to shirk responsibility when that decision lead to something really wrong.
this is life
